Jamie could only just glare at Travis when he said she was going to sleep. No, she wasn't going to sleep. They had things they needed to talk about. Though she knew Travis was going to avoid them. When he picked her up and took her upstairs she didn't fight it. Leaning her head on his shoulder as they made their way up the stairs she just kept trying to figure out how to start the conversation. "I'll lay down but I am not going to sleep" she stated as she patted the bed beside her once he set her down. The look in her eye suggested he should stay.

"It can wait" she was talking about the pain killers. The voice she was one that suggested she wasn't really sure of herself. She was trying to avoid the phrase 'We need to talk' she despised those 4 words. "I'm not looking backwards" she started. "You've been different towards me since they came back to town." She had noticed that things between them were more distant than usual. Closing her eyes she felt a few stray tears fall as she tried to blink them away. "I love you more than anyone I have ever cared for. Don't say I know because I don't think you realize how much truth there is in my statement." She didn't voice the thoughts she had running through her head about the fear of losing him. It was there but for Jamie to admit she was scared of frightened of anything. Ha good luck.

Her head was spinning and she ached all over but none of that mattered anymore. Jamie knew her husband had been right earlier about using words to get even and not fights. He had a point but that didn't mean Jamie was going to stand for it when someone was bringing her family into it. There was no secret that Jamie had a reputation for throwing punches. It was something she had since High School; but she didn't go off on anyone in court and she always kept things professional when it called for it. Words weren't enough to make her feel better, then again neither did laying here feeling ostracized because she stood up for Travis and the boys. She hadn't said much but the tears she wasn't even trying to stop them as she turned her head into the pillow and cried. Normally, when she was this upset she would reach out but there was so much distance that she was attempting to introvert away.

The look she threw at him gave him the hint that she was going to keep her word about not going to sleep, at least not till she had spoken her mind. His wife was a stubborn woman, it made till difference that he was just as stubborn as her. He sat when she refused the meds for the moment. Getting her wounds tented to was his priority at the moment. Everything else could have waited, he wanted to point out.

Her first four words had him baffled, before more words followed. He closed his eyes and sighed, he couldn't deny her words since they were true to a degree. It just wasn't her only, he was being different with everyone around him. After opening his eyes he looked at her, saw the tears, and wiped them. When a reminder that you took your ex-cousin's ex and married her came back full force, there was little he could do with the struggle he faced. It was even harder when you were torn between three people and loyalty.

Cupping her face, "I'm sorry," was all he could manage meekly. He didn't know what else to add or say. Travis simply didn't. Which alone was rare.

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The last thing that Jamie wanted was Travis avoiding this conversation. The fact that she hurt all over on the outside. Her hurt on the inside was far worse than the physical bruises. Though as distant as the two had been in recent days she doubted it would even go noticed. She knew he cared and she knew why he was pushy about it, but that didn't change things. Though she hardly thought that it would fix anything to protest. That didn't mean she wouldn't try.

When he sat to listen, it actually puzzled her. Okay apparently she was more stubborn this time. She felt him wiping away her tears. Damn it he caught them. Now she knew he would see the hurt. It took quite a bit too reduce Jamie to tears. Usually she got angry and fought until she felt better. Though the fight with Victoria had solved nothing. Jamie didn't see things the way Travis did. To her it had been no different than breaking up and faLling for someone who treated her better. It wasn't anyone's fault the two guys were related.

Jamie felt her husband's hand on her face as the rest was buried in the pillow. She rolled over to face him. "I'm not laying blame. I'm scared." She had finally said the two words she very rarely used. "I'm scared of the distance. I said forever and that won't ever change." The voice in her head kept telling and yelling at her not to shut him out. "I can't help you if you won't talk to me. Nothing you can say to me would make me walk away. I know you don't like to always talk. Our last few days week whatever, this is not us. We can't let other people dictate our marriage. I'm your wife babe, No one else's. I'm proud to stand by you" Jamie sat up and wrapped her arms around his neck. She hadn't said why she was scared nor had she mentioned that she would fall beside him as well. Those words she gathered he was smart he would read the body language.

It was okay that he had only said two words. Though Jamie's tears were heavy. Her fear was heavier. Did he trust her? Was he going to walk away because things were difficult? The first question was huge to her. "I know you trust me" her voice quivered, "So trust me" They were heavy words but they needed to be said. Jamie kissed his neck curling on his shoulder. He had hurt her but none of that mattered to her. Some of it was her own doing though too. Jamie knew it had been difficult getting over Bobby but she had done it. It was her past but she wasn't looking backwards.

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He had already seen the hurt but didn't have the guts to point it out. He didn't want to try rubbing salt into the wounds or make matters worse than they already were. While he had been avoiding her, he hadn't been either. He was trying to avoid the guilt that was poking him. But it wasn't helping that it was growing. Leaning in he gave her a kiss, and her confess about being scared wounded him, swallowing hard he sighed, placed his forehead in hers, "I don't know where to start," he admitted, he was scared to death over losing her. He was being possessive. And he hated himself for feeling like that.

He shook his head, "That's not it," he said about his own marriage being dictated by others, "His arrival, return, call it want you want took me by surprise." he pulled himself back into the sitting position and stared away. It was partly true, he wasn't going to dump his own insecurities on her, it wouldn't be fair to her, "I....." he trailed off, "Over the years it just became easier to think of him as dead. And that's wrong," he got up and walked over to the window. Birthday's for Simon had been hard, since Bobby and him always had celebrated it together. And he knew his brother would never admit to that. "I want to or at least try making things right with him. I can always try for Aunt Sarah if not for me or the Oxfords. Too many wrong don't make a right."

It had taken him years to see how many wrong were there in the situation/drama, "If I do fix things, it feels like a betrayal to Uncle Bobby and you." To this day he had no idea what his uncle said or did that made things come to this point. A part of him shouldn't be feeling like this, but he was and it was eating him up. "Too many years have already been lost. I don't want to have regrets for not trying."

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Travis was allowed to be possessive over her, Jamie had never minded that. She returned his kiss with almost all of her emotions. The blonde wasn't going anywhere and was there to stay beside Travis. Bobby wasn't even a thought in her mind these days. Not until the fight that day. Jamie had moved on and healed, the fact that Victoria had opened old wounds was irrelevant.

When Travis got up from the bed Jamie shifted herself and painfully walked over towards him. Though giving him his distance she tried to catch his line of sight. "You won't betray me by trying to fix things with family" She gently moved forward and wrapped her arms around him with her head on his chest. She looked up slightly at him for a moment. Jamie knew that she had pushed a nerve. "I'm right beside you. Just like I have always been in whatever decision you make" She fumbled out. Jamie was supporting herself in such a way that her back would bug her less but the pain was shooting through her back at the moment.

The fighting had only been defending her own family. Victoria had no right to make remarks about Travis. She wasn't so sure that she was on board with the whole kid swap idea either but whatever Travis and her father thought was best, then she wasn't going to argue. Jamie had spent years raising boys, even a week with a hormonal female in the house was going to be a challenge.

Jamie knew he was feeling insecure. Though if Bobby tried anything then Jamie would probably slap him without even thinking about it and if her ex was jealous of her life, then that was his perogative not hers. The JAG prosecutor was happy with her life and head over heels for Travis. Jamie put a thumb on Travis' lips and gazed into his eyes. "Do what you need to do sugarplum" she offered as she got comfortable near to him.

It was easier said than done, Travis noted.

The same family member he was trying to make amends with was also his wife's ex-boyfriend, not just his cousin. A man she had once loved. He frowned at her getting out of bed, but made said nothing, she was going to brush it away anyway. "Kinda feels that way," he commented. Hadn't he betrayed Bobby by marrying the woman he had loved. While he wanted to fix things in one place he didn't want to damage the other. He knew for sure that his uncle wasn't going to be happy camper.

The sound of her voice cut through his thoughts, listening he nodded, "Thanks," he told her, "that does mean a lot." Even if everything around them was a giant mess. It might take him few days to come to terms with the fact that she wasn't going bite his head off, "It's going to be a long road ahead." And a bumpy ride. He wasn't expecting smooth sails by any means. Bobby could also be a brat as they came. He loved his wife if he had to fight for her he would.

"I'm going to," if he failed at least he coud say he tired. But he was going to get whatever he could from Chrissy. He wanted some idea on how Bobby was today compared to the CG Ensign he had known years ago.

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Jamie sighed when he said he felt that way. "You are the one person that I know will never betray me" she said firmly. Many people had betrayed Jamie, many that were close to her. Many that were 'family'. "I promise you mending things will not betray me; even if they betrayed me. You are not me. I want you to be happy." She buried her neck in his neck and held back tears. How much had he gone at his family just because they had hurt her? Now it was all coming to a head and she felt partially responsible. Jamie closed her eyes so he couldn't see what she was thinking.

"No one said it was going to be easy" she stated as she lifted her head again. "Long roads are not impossible" she stated clenching her teeth this time as a shock of pain ran through her body. Too much weight on that leg, she shifted to take the pressure off. "You are worth going to hell and back for and then some" she reminded him in a lighthearted manner to try and lift his spirit as she lightly poked him in the side. There was an innocent smirk on her face as she did so.

"Now there is the man I know" her words were meant to be encouraging. She was still keeping her weight on the one leg. Right now it didn't matter to Jamie if Victoria had beaten her down. Jamie always stood up where she belonged. She would stand beside Travis in his decision, despite the bad blood between her and the others. Jamie could be civil about it. The other two? Well that was debatable. Jamie was debating changing her mind on going to the hospital but she wasn't about to tell Travis that. Mainly she didn't want the fight documented.

How could she say that with such conviction? Circumstances changed with time and situations. What if the process of fixing things did just that, betrayed her unintentionally. What then? She had the same faith in both Bobby and Victoria at one point. That turned out to be a disaster. And no he wasn't her, but even then he knew Bobby better out of both of them. Or had known. Not trusting voice, he nodded.

He wasn't sure how bad this road was going to be. But he was sure it wasn't going to be easy. He chuckled at her words, "Hades might run away instead."

He gave a her along look, "Why are you out of bed? Do you want me to take you to ER?" When she shook her head, he knew the only person to call, "You back in bed." he picked her up and settled her back, "Stay," he ordered before leaving the room. In the whole mess of things he had almost forgotten that Simon and Deb were in Rayton. He called his sister-in-law and spoke to her and hung up after she agreed to come.

"Deb will be over." And he was sure that shit would hit the fan soon as they both knew about Bobby returning to town.

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Jamie could say that with conviction because she had been married to Travis long enough to know all of him. Betrayal wasn't part of his repoire. She noted that there was only an acknowledgement. Though she couldn't quite hold that against him, her whole life had been one huge betrayal. Why would she trust someone as much as she trusted him? Because he hadn't broken that, even when given half a chance.

"Then let Hades run. We can have hell all for ourselves angel" she replied quietly. Though she didn't fail to catch his look. "Because..." she started protesting but as soon as she started, the realization kicked in that he was moving her back to the bed.

When he came to tell her that Deb was on her way, Jamie groaned. Adding more fuel to the fire. Debra would probably skin Bobby alive for letting Victoria anywhere near Jamie. "I hate you somedays sugarplum" okay so no she didn't really hate him, he was hard to hate but calling Deb... that was going to be hell for Jamie on top of riling up the other blonde.

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